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I want to buy CRUSH:

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Hardcover – ISBN-10: 0062399551

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I want to buy Up For Renewal:

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Hardcover – ISBN-10: 0743288408
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I want to buy Virgin Territory:

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ISBN-10: 1400047811 ASIN: B000HWZ13M

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Book club guideUP FOR RENEWAL: What Magazines Taught Me About Love, Sex, and Starting Over is Cathy Alter’s true-life story of living by the advice of magazines for one full year. For twelve months, she consulted the sages at ElleMarie Claire, O, Self,Real Simple, Cosmopolitan, and others for advice on everything from getting rid of under-arm jiggle to how to have a meaningful relationship with her mother. For twelve months, she would learn how to make men melt at her feet, throw fabulous parties, command her coworkers with a firm shake of her pen, and (of course) “Find His Seven Secret Pleasure Triggers!”

That was the idea, anyway. But more than learning how many lunges it takes to get great glutes, the true story behind UP FOR RENEWAL is Cathy’s surprising inner transformation. With equal parts honesty and hilarity, Cathy chronicles the course of her magazine year as she deals with many of the difficulties of life—a rotten job, a dear friend with a serious illness, her complex relationship with her mother, and her own fears of rejection and loneliness. Ultimately, she comes to realize that anything can change a life that’s ready for it—even hers, and even Cosmo.

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Up for Renewal


Up for Renewal

Now in paperback, the memoir of a woman who tackles the mess she’s made of her life by turning it over to a stack of women’s glossies.

Cathy Alter’s Up for Renewal has captured the public’s imagination, from Cathy’s appearances on the Today show and her numerous write-ups in publications such as The New York Observer, The Atlantic, and Allure. Now in paperback, Up for Renewal is just right for beach-readers eager to hear the laugh-out-loud story of how one woman turned her life around by following the simple wisdom found in women’s magazines. By age thirty-seven, with a failed marriage under her belt, Alter was continuing down the path of poor decisions, one paved with a steady stream of junk food, unpaid bills, questionable friends, and highly inappropriate men. So she dedicated her life to the women’s magazines for the next year, resolving to follow their advice without question. By the end of her subscriptions, she would get rid of upper-arm jiggle, crawl out of debt, host the perfect dinner party, run a mile without puking, engage in better bathtub booty, ask for a raise, and overhaul her apartment. At least that was the premise of her social experiment. What actually happened was much less about cosmetic change and much more about internal transformation. Singular in its voice and yet completely universal, Up for Renewal appeals to all who have ever wondered if they could actually make their life over.

From Publishers Weekly

Realizing she needed to do serious work on her junk food/junk sex–littered lifestyle, Alter, a recently divorced thirty-seven-year old freelance writer, decided to spend each month of the coming year following the advice of a major women’s magazine without question. She picked nine titles focusing on a how-to ethos more or less aligned with her own demographic: ElleMarie ClaireOAllureSelfCosmopolitanGlamourInStyle and Real Simple. Each month she’d work on a particular damage zone—diet, social fears, clothes, relationship snafus, cooking, sex, etc.—and follow the advice of her chosen magazine as earnestly as possible. Meanwhile, she’d also begun dating a new guy, which brought up relationship challenges her magazine mentors loved to address—spicing up the sex, learning to cook instead of eating out and deciding if his birthday present meant a marriage proposal was imminent. While she ends up feeling positive about the self-improvement her magazine experiment has brought, she knows if she hadn’t been ready and willing to change, all the advice in the world wouldn’t have helped. In the end, fans of Bridget Jones will also enjoy Alter—she’s funny and endearing. (July)
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“A funny, wise-crackey, addictively readable coming-of-maturity.” — Cathi Hanauer, author of Sweet Ruin and editor of The Bitch in the House

“Cathy Alter’s Up for Renewal is witty and whimsical. You’ll want to stay with her well-developed voice all the way to the end.” — Rachel Sontag, Author of House Rules

“You know that warm, relaxed, pleasurable feeling you get when cracking open the latest issue of your favorite magazine? That’s what reading Cathy Alter’s Up for Renewal is like. Prepare to not only have a great time but also to get truly inspired.” — Mandy Stadtmiller, “About Last Night” New York Post columnist

Virgin Territory


Virgin Territory

Virgin Territory by Cathy AlterFrom Barbies to Bras to Botox . . .

Of course you remember your first period, but what about the first time you donned a suit and a pair of sensible pumps for a job interview? How about the first time you were catcalled while walking down the street? The first time you said something that sounded just like it came out of your mother’s mouth? Do you remember the first time you lost a dear friend? Or the first time you experienced the trauma of the department store makeup counter? How about your first earth-shattering orgasm?

A woman’s life is one of passages, of stages marked by changes in our bodies and in our minds. Our lives are shaped by a series of “first times,” and Cathy Alter presents a wonderful array of these experiences in Virgin Territory. Here are first-
person accounts from a cross-section of women from a rich variety of backgrounds that will remind you of all those special firsts in your own life, both mortifying and monumental, including:

• First Frill: Tales of bras, designer jeans, stilettos, and all the other things we wear (and do) to make ourselves beautiful
• First Flash: Adventures with dirty books, obscene phone calls, and those naughty little pleasures we never reveal
• First Flicker: Accounts of the awesome power of T&A
• First Field: Escapades from the working life—it’s not all pantyhose and briefcases
• First Farewell: Sagas of leaving home, breaking up, and moving on

Whether you are in love for the first time or experiencing your first hot flashes, Virgin Territory will remind you of the sisterhood we women are fortunate enough to be a part of and inspire you to sit down with your gilfriends and share your firsts, too.

Excerpt from Up for Renewal


Excerpt from
Up For Renewal
What magazines taught me about love, sex and starting over.

Do or Diet

Taking baby steps into a new life seemed like the most humane way to slap myself in the face. I was not mentally prepared to take on a month of money matters or transform anything with paint. My inaugural challenge should be familiar and manageable. Because personal experience showed that I had more control over what (and not who) I put in my mouth, my first foray into self improvement was to be food-related.

At five-eleven and a size 6, diet is a noun for me, not a verb. I didn’t need to lose weight. I just needed to stop eating the insides of the vending machine for lunch. Plus, an official lunch would provide balance and structure to my routine, elements of a normal life that had been AWOL from mine.

If I didn’t have a digestive system more fragile than most tropical fish, I would eat anything put in front of me. Here’s a partial list of foods most deadly to me: shrimp, lobster, ice cream, tuna fish, yogurt, cheese, pumpkin seeds, black beans, white wine, Brazil nuts, soybeans, calcium-enriched orange juice, tiramisu, lamb, and anything from Fuddruckers. I also stopped eating red meat when I was poor and living on my own in New York City. Now that I’m more gainfully employed, I’d like to begin incorporating a bit of beef into my diet, but I’m convinced that first hamburger will send my body into seismic shock.

Because I suffered from so many food allergies, I defaulted to bread. And more bread. I kicked off my days with a jumbo cinnamon raisin bagel and often repeated the same breakfast for lunch when I couldn’t think of anything else to eat. And if I wasn’t eating popcorn for dinner, I was slapping together a peanut butter (protein!) and jelly sandwich or eating a Dunkin’ Donuts corn muffin directly out of the bag.
I thought hard about bread and how much I was going to miss a nice crust. I didn’t need to open up a single June issue to know that the only acceptable baguettes I’d find would come from Fendi, not France. What I didn’t know was what directives were going to come down from the mountain of magazines that were currently piled on my coffee table — and whether their instructions would result in anything suitable for eating. I imagined a month of shelling snow peas and discovering 10 Tricks for Tastier Tofu. I pictured myself the way I envisioned other healthy eaters — clear-eyed and vibrating with sunshine — and realized I was smiling.

Food has always been a vehicle of change for me, and June was always when the drive began. The moment school let out for summer, I was preparing for fall, when I’d reenter school a different person. Tanner, prettier, shorter (I was heads taller than most of the boys in my class), more confident, magically popular, and finally, FINALLY, kissed. Naturally, I thought the last three would happen only if the first three did.

My first attempt at self-improvement took place the summer between seventh and eighth grade, when my mother and I went on the Scarsdale diet. The food, or lack thereof, was practically prison fare: a scoop of cottage cheese, a piece of skinless chicken, cantaloupes ad nauseam. Breakfast, which consisted of a single slice of dry protein toast the size and consistency of a cocktail napkin washed down with a hellish glass of grapefruit juice, was a key hardship.

Sensing the historic significance of a first diet, I documented my regimen with tedious precision; my quilted Holly Hobbie diary soon took on the qualities of an actuarial spreadsheet. When I wasn’t suffering through a dressing-free salad or immortalizing it with Dickensonian aplomb, I was breaststroking like crazy in our swimming pool.

I lasted a week, at which point Gail, my best friend since fifth grade, took me to the snack bar at her country club. I became a spectacle of nutritional noncompliance. I happily purchased a bag of Doritos and a cup of hot fudge (for dipping purposes), and we watched a gang of deeply tanned women play mah-jongg with the same gaping interest we normally reserved for the Matt Dillon classic Over the Edge. I had never seen mah-jongg before and assumed that the women, with their coral lips, python-print caftans, and numinous ivory tiles, were gypsies, despite the fact that we were deep in the suburbs of Farmington, Connecticut, at a private club that admitted only Jews.

Not that I should have been on a diet in the first place. I wasn’t fat, in spite of my father pinching my “love handles” and nicknaming me Butterball. “Are your thighs still hungry?” he’d ask, whenever I reached for seconds or asked if I could order dessert.
Photos of me at this time show an immature face with full, smooth cheeks, my hipless torso and ribbon legs predicting the shape I would eventually own in adulthood. Yet, at twelve, I had neither the therapy nor the vocabulary to tell my father that he may have been projecting — or getting even with me for every time I poked him in the stomach and asked him to laugh like the Pillsbury Doughboy.

My mother, a six-foot-tall glamazon with a closet pulled from her own clothing boutique, sent the most powerful message to me by way of her dinner plate. I took a nightly inventory of what she ate. “Why don’t you want a baked potato?” I’d wonder. “Don’t you like the Colonel’s special biscuits?”

“I’m on a diet,” she’d respond, without fail. To ensure she stuck to it, she’d only stock our cookie jar with Mallomars and our freezer with rainbow sherbet — textures and flavors she found repellent and unworthy.

I grew up accepting the inevitability that once you became a woman, you were always on a diet. Being a woman equaled loss.

As I reached for a bright orange Cosmopolitan with an equally orange (-haired, -skinned, -dressed) Jessica Simpson on the cover, I wondered what was I about to give up — and what I would eventually gain. Flashy and obvious, with page after page of bite-size true confessions about sex in predominantly public places, Cosmo was like diving into a big bag of penny candy. Before I knew it, I was in some sugar-induced euphoria, taking theCosmo Quiz “Do You Make Men M-E-L-T?”

1. You’re checking into a resort with friends when you notice a group of hot guys. You:
a. Pray your pals don’t embarrass you
b. Say, “Hey boys, we’re in room 508!”
c. Smile. If they start a convo, you’ll say “Maybe we’ll see you by the pool.”

Can you believe that I really took the time to consider these lettered possibilities? Neither could I. But I chose C, the milquetoast of the trio, and moved on.

2. The guy you’re casually dating excitedly asks if you’ve ever kissed a girl. You say:
a. “Wouldn’t you like to know.”
b. “Gross, never!”
c. “Sure! Wanna see me do it now?”

HILARIOUS! Had this quiz been written in irony? This was funny by design, right? I liked that I was in on the joke and circled A, because seriously, guys love when you toy with your sexuality.

3. You’re chilling at the park next to a stud. What do you do to get his attention?
a. Some provocative yoga poses
b. Sunbathe in your bra
c. Pull out your romance novel

I knew a coked-out hairdresser in my neighborhood who would have selected A without a moment’s hesitation. I once saw her pull her leg around her head at a dinner party, her crotch aimed directly toward the one straight man in the room.

It didn’t take me long to determine the obvious.Cosmo had divided the female quiz-taking population into three groups: Sluts, prudes, and everyone else. Did this prevent me from immensely enjoying the discovery of the apparent? Did this stop me from inserting myself into the rest of the seven scenarios? No, it did not. After I decided the television character I most related to was Elliot fromScrubs and that I’d most likely wear cropped pants and a T-shirt to an outdoor party, I tallied my score and learned that I was a simmering seductress. I “project come-hither vibes that don’t scream desperate.”

Rather than being dismayed that I had turned toCosmo to tell me who I really was, I felt oddly validated (as well as highly entertained) and congratulated myself for coming up with this genius idea. In the past, I had to speed-read my way through the latest installments of Glamour or InStylein the poorly lit waiting room of my dentist’s office. Now, I had an actual excuse, a job, a responsibilityto read all these magazines every single month for the next year. I could hardly wait for my subscriptions to kick in.

Even though I was supposed to be limiting myself to healthy-eating articles, it was hard not to devour every magazine cover to cover, which took me approximately five hours (not counting the hour I spent online trying to locate the necklace Katie Holmes wore throughout her “Single in the City” photo spread in InStyle magazine).

Spending an afternoon with the ladies, I realized how much voyeuristic, diversionary amusement was available to me, like the article in Marie Claire about a woman who recruits a wingman to help her land a date. It was a different kind of pleasure, this sort of reading, compared to tackling a ten thousand-word profile on Gertrude Stein in the New Yorker, for example. I forgot how much dumb fun regular reading could be. I was both thrilled and horrified by the thought of filling my head with the latest developments in teeth whiteners and wondered what kind of parlor tricks I’d be performing for friends: Look, everyone! Watch how Lucy’s jawline softens when I give her a deep side part!

Even if an article was wildly out of sync with my June mission, I tore out whatever I saw as having value for future months. O, The Oprah Magazine, for instance, had devoted the month to “religion,” with her Ah, Men! special issue. Inside, there were all sorts of articles with captions like “How to Get Through to a Man,” “Bald Is to Male as Fat Is to Female,” and the highly educational, “Getting Him to Open Up, or How to Interview a Brick Wall,” by Seth Kugel, a New York Times reporter who wrote that getting a man to talk is comparable to cracking a tough subject, like asking Dick Cheney “where the undisclosed location is.” And even though David L. Katz’s The Way to Eat column was male-oriented, I ripped it out. I figured I could still put it to use the next time I was entertaining my own lab rat, since Katz offered guidance on the healthiest alcohol to serve to a guy who still wanted to pound a few cocktails.

While I built the ultimate reference library, I continued to look for anything food-related. It was pretty slim pickings. Perhaps all the healthy-eating articles appeared in April, with umpteen variations on the “Get Bikini-Ready by Memorial Day” theme plastered across covers. I mostly found articles that offered advice and encouragement for sticking to a diet, not for beginning one. Allure had an ongoing monthly feature called Total Makeover, where a weight-loss specialist had been downsizing three pear-shaped women since January. Next to a full-body shot of each participant (who all got the memo from Marcel Marceau to wear black mime tights on their lower halves) was a chart comparing their current weight, waist, hip, and body fat measurements to their January stats. One of the women, a pretty pale blonde with muscular calves, revealed that she sticks to her diet by rewarding herself with a manicure. Below her profile was a photograph of a cassette tape with words of encouragement recorded by the specialist, who had labeled the tape, “Nothing tastes as great as thin.” A little cannibalistic, but the sentiment was well placed. I tore out the page and decided to apply the reward strategy to my own battle with junk food. A manicure would look much better without a fringe of orange Cheetos powder under my fingernails.

Cosmo had a twist on caloric slip-ups, with an “Informer” piece on celebrity binges. I was surprised to learn that Eva Mendes sought solace in tuna sandwiches with “extra onions and Doritos smashed inside.” There was even a photo of Eva sitting in a café, shoving something that resembled a Gorton’s breaded fish fillet in her mouth. No wonder she was wearing dark sunglasses.

I put off reading Real Simple until the end — mostly because I was tempted by the sheer razzle-dazzle of the other magazines. But it was here, among ample white space, unfussy graphics, and a calm, reassuring tone, that I found my centerpiece for June: four beautifully art-directed pages devoted to covering things in plastic wrap. (This was not to be confused with Cosmo‘s more faithful interpretation of package wrap. Number 8 in their “Sex Trick Hall of Fame” called for covering a man’s testicles with a square of plastic wrap, pressing your lips against the parcel, and humming gently. I made a mental note to file this one away for sex month.)

Besides giving step-by-step pictorials for swathing half an onion and a hearty slice of what looked like frosted lemon cake in plastic, Real Simple had grandly spotlighted a tutorial in sandwich wrapping.

The potential for my personal success was multifold. For one, I would be brown-bagging my lunch, a phenomenon that hadn’t occurred since junior high school. Not only was I taking preventive measures against a meal of pretzels and animal crackers, I would be giving my quarters a higher purpose — the washing machine in my building.

I have a thing about cling wrap, aka the kitchen equivalent of a wire hanger. Both menaces share the exact same characteristic — the ability to completely fuck with you. Cling Wrap, wily, born of static, and with a gravitational pull toward its home planet, simply demanded too much work. Maybe I have poor motor control, but I just can’t deal with this runaway-train aspect. Aluminum foil is malleable, predictable, and to my aesthetics, so much prettier.

But this project was all about self-improvement. Perhaps learning how to encase a sandwich in plastic would also serve as a meditation on tolerance and acceptance.

Because my kitchen is the approximate size of a welcome mat, with a toaster, microwave, and coffeemaker vying for space on the only counter, I rarely made anything that required a surface area larger than a dinner plate. A sandwich, however, fell within the zoning limit, so I was not feeling any performance anxiety as I set out to prepare my lunch. At 8:30 am, a good twenty minutes before I left for the ten-minute walk to work, I made a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and set about wrapping it.
Real Simple testers selected Glad’s Press’n Seal as the best all-around stick-to-iter (can you imagine what circle of hell the job of analyzing plastic wrap occupies?), but my local supermarket is too low-rent to carry such an advanced piece of technology. I had to slum it with an earlier generation, the classic Cling Wrap.

When I studied the three photos demonstrating the proper wrapping procedure, the first thing that came to mind was jazz hands. Because the only things moving from photo to photo were the hands, which were expressive and dramatic looking. The sandwich maintained the same canted position from one photo to the next. I recalled that scene in The Bird Cage where Robin Williams analogously choreographs his backup dancers. “Now Fosse, Bob Fosse. Martha Graham, Martha Graham!”

I’ve always been a more verbal interpreter, so maybe the visual cues weren’t that important here. I ripped out the sandwich triptych and hung it on the cabinet above my workstation.

Step 1
Tear off a piece of wrap about 14 inches long and put the sandwich in the middle of it.

I took notice of the time as I began: 8:42 am. Acing this first step was critical, and getting the exact size of the plastic would definitely ensure my success. So I took it slow — especially with the tearing of the wrap, my usual point of departure for disasterville.

Remarkably, being vigilant paid off. It was the first time I hadn’t either sliced my finger on the box’s serrated edge or encased my arm in wrap that had run amok.

Fold the end closest to you up and over the sandwich, pulling it down over the far edge to secure everything firmly.

This assumed that I had positioned everything for a vertical wrap. I had not. My narrow strip of counter runs horizontally. So I had to rearrange the entire operation, which pissed me off in an admittedly disproportionate way. Which further pissed me off.

Step 2
Holding the sandwich by its sides, flip it away from you once, bringing the bottom face-up (make sure you have enough wrap to cover the sandwich entirely after you flip it).

The photo showed a sandwich standing up on its end, with jazz hands on either side, fingers aimed downward, like some bizarre cookery gangsta sign. After reading the instructions another time, I realized that all I had to do was turn the sandwich over, which sealed the open edge. It was the same muscle memory as paying rent, folding a piece of paper around a check to conceal the true contents of the envelope.

Step 3
Press the excess plastic on the right side together and fold it tightly over the top of the sandwich, pulling the flap snug and pressing down gently so it sticks. Do the same on the left side. Flip it over once more; gravity will help the seal stay tight.

Believe me, this was not as complicated as the above instructions may have indicated. The fact that this sort of verbal hijinks appeared in a publication called Real Simple should not be overlooked.

By the time I patted down the left and right sides, despite the exhaustive play-by-play above, the sun had not set, the hens had not come home to roost, and the clock read just 8:44 am. I vowed to get my wrap time down to less than a minute by the end of the week. And of course, the true test would be the sticking factor. When lunchtime rolled around, would the package still be this masterpiece of hermetic engineering?

Whereas I arrived at my cubicle around nine, Bruno usually started his day at eleven, took a two-hour lunch, and multitasked by chitchatting on the telephone, listening to Spanish talk radio, and surfing the Internet. Normally, I would applaud this ability to buck the system and earn a solid paycheck — if I didn’t have to work with him. As an art director, he was responsible for taking my words and doing something visually interesting with them — like creating, for instance, a four-color advertisement in a trade journal or a humongous sign to suspend above a conference booth.

While I hung up the picture of Eva Mendes and her Dorito sandwich on the edge of my computer monitor (a visual reminder not to eat anything out of the vending machine), I listened to Bruno on the phone. He was obviously conducting another seduction, emitting scratchy-throated heh-heh-hehsand validating his enamored listener with “Yes, yes, exactly!” After two years of occasionally being on the other end of the phone line, I could tell when he was talking to someone he was fucking.

I used to feel a deep pain in my heart when he’d have phone conversations like this while we were still screwing. It showed a lack of respect on his part that was unfathomable to me. And yet, even though I knew he was courting countless women, I still welcomed him to my cubicle — oftentimes right after he’d hung up the phone with one of his mistresses. I needed to be reassured, and his visits meant (I told myself) that he still desired me, that I still mattered to him in some small way.

For a while, I’d torture myself by listening to Bruno on the phone, hoping I’d finally discover, in my anger, the self-worth I had misplaced since beginning the affair. But the attempts at aversion therapy didn’t work. It never got easier for me to hear him sonically caress someone else, but it didn’t make a difference to my cravings: I wasn’t ready to put the kibosh on our quickies anytime soon.

So I put my head in the sand. I didn’t want to hear what I already knew. The split second Bruno’s phone rang, I’d reach for my headphones and drown out his greasy seductions by blasting the White Stripes into my brain. Or, I’d play a constant loop of my theme song, L7’s “Stuck Here Again.” (“Yeah, yeah, I’m stuck here again. I’ve learned to make bad situations my friend. It starts all over just where it should end. Yeah, yeah, I’m stuck here again.”)

As I pulled out that first semi-wrapped sandwich (one side had flopped open like a limp handshake), I toyed with the possibility that Bruno had ruined me. Not in the broken-shell-of-a-woman sort of way, but more subtly, more gradually. Like pushing his thumb in the dirt, Bruno had planted another small dot of disappointment in me, and the delicate new roots, gnarling with older, thicker, and deeper ones, reinvigorated them and spread them everywhere.

What if this was my lot in life, to be internally and eternally infected? Bruno wasn’t responsible for all of the damage, but seeing him, hearing him, interacting with him every Monday through Friday was definitely picking at my scabs. And learning how to wrap a sandwich suddenly seemed a futile exercise, like fiddling while Rome burned. Where was an article like “How to Survive an Office Romance” when you really needed one?

I responded to this latest bout of Brunitis by weighing my options. Again. Even while Bruno and I were still, and I use this term loosely, involved, I always had the good sense to go out with other men. A few months earlier I had met a guy on JDate whose profile read like a Jonathan Franzen novella. An economics professor at Georgetown University, Zelly appealed to me immediately, both for his erudite wordplay and his resemblance to my secret fantasy lover, Beck. However, after our first date, it was pretty evident (to me, at least) that we’d just be friends. I stood nearly six inches taller than Zelly, and I just couldn’t shake the feeling of giganticness all evening. Zelly, on the other hand, freely admitted to having a tall blond shiksa fantasy, so the fact that I towered over him (and was Jewish to boot) didn’t crush his hopes at all. In Zelly I saw the chance to expand my social dance card, and I figured that if I liked Zelly, I’d probably like his friends, so I allowed him to extend the fantasy. And when I learned that Zelly rode a motorcycle, I extended one of my own: the dream of becoming someone’s bitch.

I had tried to fulfill this desire through Glen, the guy who loved cowhide and not me. As a marketing tool, he was riding around town on a BMW with a seat reupholstered in brown-and-white-spotted hide. With the hopes of becoming his bitch, I had purchased my own white motorcycle helmet, which began gathering dust in the corner of my apartment as soon as Glen found out about it.

At the end of our first date, Zelly gladly rode me home on the back of his motorcycle. And even though, holding on to his tiny shoulders, I felt like I was riding behind a squirrel, I knew my helmet would finally be seeing some action. When Zelly mentioned he was unhappy with the fit of his riding gloves, I offered to introduce him to Karl, whom I had met when the Washington Post Magazine hired me to cover an event at the ritzy boutique selling Italian high fashion where he worked. That day, while a Hugh Grant look-alike from Milan tried like hell to sell $6,000 made-to-measure suits to the loyal Brooks Brothers population of D.C., Karl and I had talked about his new Harley, which was parked, at a gravity-defying tilt, in the front window of the store.

Karl’s boutique was having a huge sale the weekend Zelly and I met, and after hearing a dissertation the previous evening on Hugo Boss, I knew that Zelly was a fanatical shopper (and his small stature made him the perfect candidate for slim-fitting Italian clothing). So I asked Zelly if he’d like to swing by on his motorcycle and accompany me to the sale. Not only would I have another chance to ride on Zelly’s motorcycle, I’d be putting two similarly interested guys together and maybe brokering a new friendship — a selfless gesture that canceled out my prime motive for wanting to take Zelly shopping.

It turned out that my matchmaking skills were top-notch, and Zelly and Karl quickly bonded over an equally distributed love of Italian clothing and Japanese motorbikes. Zelly quickly incorporated Karl into his inner circle, and as long as I played the unattainable Jewish WASP, I had a lifetime membership to Zelly’s clubhouse. As I tried hard to extricate myself from the fickle grips of Bruno and Glen, I began to rely on Zelly more and more for my social livelihood. Coincidentally, so did Karl, who had up until recently been dating one of Zelly’s friends.

After a while, Zelly found a taller, leggier blonde to chase, and he and I slipped comfortably into an easy, uncharged friendship. Karl and I continued to run into each other, mostly late at night, usually on someone else’s couch, always with me regaling Karl with yet another story of love, my love, gone wrong. It was on one of those couches, at about 2:00 am, that Karl reached for my hand, told me I deserved more than I was getting, and gave me that sly glimmer of possibility.

“If you’re not busy after work, stop by my place for a drink.”

Had I been emailing a friend, the above would have taken me around seven seconds to type. However, I was not emailing a friend. The recipient of the invitation was Karl, and I spent over an hour trying to achieve the casual tone and perfect balance of “It’s cool, no biggie if you can’t, but I am awesome, so why wouldn’t you want to hang out?”

I counted to three and pushed send. Then, in a rare display of optimism (not to mention the uncharacteristic pairing of it with a man), I walked to a liquor store near my office and bought a nice bottle of Australian Shiraz and a six-pack of Miller Lite. Oprah had said that the healthiest alcoholic beverage for a man is red wine because, unlike most booze, it has a high concentration of antioxidants called bioflavonoids, which help decrease the risk of heart disease and cancer (although, Karl’s smoking might cancel that last benefit right out). Beer supposedly helps protect bone mineral density, and the hops contain some B vitamins.

Back at the office, I bit the bullet and checked my email.

sure hows 7:30

There were no capital letters or any attempts at punctuation, but so what? With those sort-of words, I had turned into a breathless girl about to walk into her first boy/girl party. On those banner occasions when I met Glen for happy hour at our neighborhood bar, I had always felt anxious and unsure, like I was his Plan B. And with Bruno, there was always a catch. Like the time he invited me to his place for dinner, reheated some leftovers, and then asked for help with his tax return.

Once home, I walked though my front door and experienced my apartment for the first time, through Karl’s eyes. I saw the haphazardly hung art, the butt-laden ashtray, the hideous venetian blinds, and, in the middle of the living room floor, the empty brown grocery bag I had left for my cat Raymond to play in. Welcome, Karl. I am a wacky cat lady with the refinement of a garage sale. Care for a cocktail?

Again, I considered the futility of sandwich month and wished I had started off with something more observable, like sexy hair month. But Karl already knew that I had wavy, dirty blond hair, usually with an errant bobby pin or two. While I waited for him, I killed time with an article in Cosmo that dissected what a man’s food cravings (salty, sweet, or spicy) revealed about his personality — both in and out of bed. I had never seen Karl eat anything other than peanut M&Ms, which sort of qualified him for two categories, salty (“He hungers for the company of others so much that he can’t stand to sleep alone”) and sweet (“A true hedonist, this pleasure pursuer isn’t afraid to indulge his deepest desires”). I was tempted to set out a bag of potato chips, a plate of cookies, and a bowl of five-alarm chili to see what he reached for first, but the chance of finding anything like that in my kitchen was, big surprise, zero.

At 7:25, I considered what sort of music Karl might enjoy. Once, when I asked Bruno what kind of music he liked, he mulled it over for a while and then answered, “I like very much what Jay Leno’s band plays before the commercials.” Not wanting Karl to think I had similarly questionable taste, I thoughtfully scanned my library and selected the Shins’ first album, which was neither too fey (Belle and Sebastian), too estro-fest (Sleater-Kinney), or too ironic (Echo & the Bunnymen). Karl showed up just as “New Slang,” my favorite song, began to play. As someone who has always believed in the portentousness of music, this was a very good sign.

“Nice hide,” Karl said, walking over to the cow-shaped rug in the middle of my living room. “Did you get it from that guy who makes things out of cows?”
“Oh, do you know Glen?” I asked, trying to sound breezy.
“Everybody knows fucking Glen.”
Karl’s boutique carried some of Glen’s handbags, and Karl and I sat down and immediately started ragging on Glen’s P. T. Barnum-esque style of self-promotion.
“I’ve never met anyone so impressed with himself,” Karl said, laughing.
“And one so completely unaware of his own bullshit,” I continued. There was no way I was coming clean that I once desperately prayed for the attention of this blowhard.

We sat around drinking beer, talking about ourselves in the way you do when you have a completely new audience, and after a while, Karl shook his head slightly and said, “It feels like we’re catching up. Like we’ve known each other our whole lives, but just haven’t seen each other in a while.”
“I’ve really missed you,” I said.

I still can’t believe what happened next (this coming from the same woman who regularly hiked her skirt up during office hours). But this time was different. This time there was no sex in cubicles, no sex on the roof of the Standard Hotel, no sex on South Beach while people practically stepped over us while strolling the shoreline, and no sex on the hood of a rental car in the Detroit airport (oh, Bruno and I got around!); there was no sex at all, actually. It was just that Karl kissed me like he had read my diary, holding my face in his hands, with an intimacy and tenderness that belied our brief history.

“I can’t remember the last time anyone kissed me like that,” I told him. Of course I realized that I sounded like a Drew Barrymore movie. But the fact was, I really couldn’t remember what real kissing felt like.

And because I couldn’t think of anything else to say, and because I always looked for trouble when things were going fine, I said, “How old are you?”

I knew Karl’s mother was Chinese, and his father was American and Jewish. I knew Karl was born in New York and moved to Virginia as his parents were divorcing. I knew that the part of the Torah he read for his bar mitzvah was about a woman’s menstrual cycle. I also knew he was younger than me. I just didn’t know how much younger.

If he had asked me my age, I would have told him. But he just continued to kiss me.

After a few weeks of sandwich wrapping, I didn’t even have to look at my cheat sheet anymore. Besides packing the PB&J standby, I dabbled in sliced turkey, smoked chicken, and even egg salad. I bought mustard again. And lettuce. I don’t think I’d ever bought lettuce. When it wasn’t too humid outside, I walked through Georgetown and down to the canal, the same canal I walked along on weekends with Jeanne, and ate my sandwich al fresco. It was relaxing, and I sort of felt like a schoolgirl, carrying my lunch in a Neiman Marcus bag. Sometimes I stopped by Karl’s store on the way back to work and said hello or stood outside with him while he smoked a Camel. When I returned from those walks, especially the ones when I visited with Karl, I began to realize the only time I put on my headphones was when my other cubicle mate slurped her coffee. (And when she did, I thought,How can anyone who’s been to Italy so many times slurp her coffee?) And, miracle of miracles, perhaps through some divine intervention of sandwich fixing, I no longer felt stung by Bruno’s heartlessness. Lunch had gotten me out of more than just the office.

I also realized that in a small way, I’d overcome my resistance to doing something, even something as insignificant as grappling with Saran Wrap. In the aggregate these trivial accomplishments — baby steps really — did add up to quite significant somethings. Maybe that’s why these magazines are so popular among women. What’s contained inside shows the reader a perfectly imagined future where they won’t eat junk food for dinner or become mired under the weight of a cruel and uncaring lover. And that is surely worth the cover price.

As I wrapped up June, I started to get hit with my July issues. It was incredibly hard not to peek, to flip through the upcoming month and get aChristmas Carol-like tour of my future exploits. But that would be cheating. I needed to do the month I was in.

Do the month you’re in. It was a good strategy in general — even if it did sound like it was pulled out of a fortune cookie. Or off the cover of a magazine.

Copyright © 2008 by Cathy Alter

Pre-2011 Events


October 17, 2009
F. Scott Fitzgerald Literary Conference
w/Tim Wendel, author of Castro’s Curveball
8:30-10 AM
Theater Arts Building of Montgomery College
Rockville Campus

September 24, 2009
Reading at Barnes & Noble
7 PM
1851 Fountain Drive
Reston, VA 20190

September 23, 2009
6-7 PM
Fall for the Book
I’ll be reading along with David Shields, author of the amazing The Thing About Life Is That One Day You’ll Be Dead
George Mason University
visit for more information

August 4th, 2009
Lets Talk Live
News Channel 8 (check local listings for times)
July 27th, 2009
Better TV (check local listings for times)

July 29th, 2009
“Bulldog” Bill Feingold Unleashed
KNEWS Radio 10:15 PM PST

July 30th, 2009
The Paradise Radio Network
WCBQ-AM 1340 WHNC-AM 890 7:15 AM

July 28th, 2009
Up For Renewal US paperback release!

Past events

August 6th, 2pm EST
Broadminded, a pop culture and entertainment show heard on XM155 (US, CAN)

August 14th, 3:30pm EST
A Chef’s Table, WHYY Radio, Philadelphia, NPR affiliate, Nationally Syndicated. Interview with host Jim Coleman

July 10th – Click here for more on Cathy’s segment with Kathie Lee on the TODAY Show
Kathie meets Cathy in the 10 o’clock hour.

July 8th – Reading at Barnes and Noble Washington DC – M Street Georgetown 7:30pm
Thank you for the great turn out – what a wonderful evening!

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Cathy Alter book reading and signing at Georgetown Barnes and Noble

Thanks to Betsy Lowther for the great photos!

Mark Judge’s video of the event >>

Friday July 11th
9:00 – 9:30 PM ET LIVE

Saturday July 12th
12:20 – 12:40 PM ET, LIVE
SECOND SATURDAY MAGAZINE, WPKM RADIO, Independent Public Radio, Bridgeport, CT & Montauk, NY

Monday July 14th

Channel 8 NEWS interview

7:35 – 8:00 AM ET LIVE
THE DIANE JONES SHOW. KLPW Radio in Washington, MO

8:50 – 9:05 AM ET, TAPED
THE MORNING SHOW, WGVU Radio, Grand Rapids, MI, NPR affiliate

11:00 – 11:30 AM ET TAPED
VIEWPOINTS. Media Tracks. Nationally Syndicated

Tuesday July 15th
3:30 – 4:00 PM ET TAPED

Wednesday July 16th

Canada AM – TV interview

10:05 – 10:25 AM ET LIVE
THE ROUND TABLE. WAMC, National Productions, NPR, Albany, NY

11:06 – 11:20 AM ET LIVE
THE IDEA EXCHANGE, WBEV Radio, Madison & Central WI

5:15 – 5:30 PM ET LIVE
THE GARY O’BRIEN SHOW, WDWS Radio, 1400 AM-News Talk, Champaign, IL

Thursday July 17th
12:30 – 1;30 PM ET LIVE
AUTHOR AUTHORS! WETA.ORG/ NPR & PBSAffiliate in Arlington, VA – on radio and video

Friday July 18th
8:20 – 8:30 AM ET LIVE

11:00 – 11:30 AM ET, TAPED

7:50 – 8:00 PM ET LIVE
THE JOURNEY HOME, KSFR Radio, Santa Fe Public Radio Santa Fe/Albuquerque, New Mexico

Monday July 21st
10:00 – 10: 15 AM ET LIVE

Tuesday July 22nd –
Reading at Joseph Beth bookstore, Lexington KY
Cathy will also be recording on Lexington Tonic NPR radio show – air date TBD.

Tuesday July 22 WLEX-TV
Lexington, KY

Wednesday July 23 WHAS-11

Louisville, KY

About Cathy


Cathy Alter’s feature articles, essays, and reviews have appeared in local and national newspapers and magazines including The Washington PostWashingtonianThe AtlanticThe Huffington PostSelfMcSweeney’s, and SMITH Magazine. Her book, Virgin Territory: Stories from the Road to Womanhood was released in 2004 and her memoir, Up for Renewal: What Magazines Taught Me About Love, Sex, and Starting Over was released in July 2008. She holds an M.A. from Johns Hopkins University, where she is currently a faculty member and nonfiction advisor.

SMITH articles archive


Click here to read the article
Interview: Edward Ugel, author of I’m With Fatty:
Losing Fifty Pounds in Fifty Miserable Weeks

“This book is the furthest thing from a diet book. It’s a memoir and it’s a story about one guy trying to grow up and say ‘no’ to himself for the first time in a long time.” Read more >>

Catcalled: A story from Smith’s upcoming book The Moment 

It’s sad to say that I became a woman the day I was objectified by a man. It’s sad because I would be lying if I didn’t say I liked it. Read More >>

Pre-2016 News


Mortified DC performance

“Jim Morrison”

SMITH Magazine
Click here to read the article
Interview: Edward Ugel, author of I’m With Fatty:
Losing Fifty Pounds in Fifty Miserable Weeks
By Larry Smith
Open article in a new window >>

Ask Miss A
Ask miss A - interview with Cathy Alter by
Book review
Interview part 1 >>
Interview part 2 >>

The District Dish

Fishbowl DC
The lost FishbowlDC interview – Cathy Alter
By Matt Dornic
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SMITH Magazine
Glamour magazine
7 Surefire Ways to Win Him (and His Peeps!) Over
By Erin Meanley
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Had Enough Therapy? Cathy Alter takes advice.
By Stuart Schneiderman
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SMITH Magazine
Click here to read the article
Renewing our love for Cathy Alter
By Larry Smith
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Teenage Girls Turning To Image Consultants
For A Boost Of Self-Esteem
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Dishing the dirt, according to Cathy Alter
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Ask Miss A
Ask miss A - interview with Cathy Alter by
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Six-Word Memoirs
Cathy Alter featured in Six Word Memoirs
Cathy’s 6-word memoir is on page 235. Thanks Larry!
Click to buy on Amazon

Author Author
PBS author author interview - Cathy Alter, Up For Renewal
Play video of Cathy Alter interview on PBS Author Author
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The Atlantic

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Northern Virginia Magazine
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Bulldog Bill Feingold KNEWS radio interview
Listen to the interview on the KNEWS site

DC Modern Luxury
Open article in a new window

Toronto Sun – Off the rack
Toronto Sun
Toronto Sun >>

The Guardian – Save me, glossies, save me!
The Guardian (UK)

Daily Candy – Late Summer Reading Roundup
Book Them

Washington Times
Magazines as lifesavers

XM Radio – Broadminded
XM 155

Hey Lady! Whatcha Readin’?
Book Review >>

Betty Confidential
Woman of the Week >>

Zink magazine
ZINK Magazine - Cathy Alter, Up For Renewal
Click for article in a new window >>

Allure magazine
Allure Magazine
How magazines can save your life >>

Tonic Radio – NPR affiliate
Click to listen >>

The Times-Picayune
Five new books on the fundamentals of reading >>

The Georgetowner
July 2008
A rollicking good read >>

SMITH Magazine
Sunday, July 20th 2008

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Jezebel (with Today Show clip)

Cathy Alter on Jezebel, talking on the Today Show with Kathie Lee and Hoda Kotb

Women’s Magazines Save Woman’s Life
Cathy Alter’s life was a mess. She was divorced, unhappy, lost, etc. So she spent under 200 bucks and in one year, she was greatly improved. The gimmick? She used women’s magazines to get herself back on track…
Continue reading >>

Cathy Alter talks with Kathie Lee and Hoda Kotb
Thursday, July 10th 2008

Click here to read more about the segment on MSNBC >>

Globe and Mail
by Siri Agrell | July 2008

Up For Renewal by Cathy Alter, in the Globe and Mail

How 365 days of Cosmo advice saved my life
There are a lot of places to turn when your life is in turmoil. Cathy Alter chose Cosmopolitan, Glamour and In Style. The Washington, D.C.-based writer was a wreck – sleeping around, alienating friends and generally taking her life in a downward spiral. But after a year spent following the advice in women’s magazines , Ms. Alter says she managed to get her life back on track, and even found true love. Continue reading >>

New York Daily News
Thursday, July 3rd 2008

Cathy Alter Up For Renewal, article in new york daily news
Following beauty advice to the letter is more stressful than magazines make it seem.
Continue reading >>

The Toronto Star
by Daphne Gordon| July 2008

Article in the
So many magazines, so little time…
Tales of a magazine junkie
An office affair, bad diet and frumpy looks sent author Cathy Alter to the self-help experts – Cosmo, Self and Lucky. Continue reading >>

Washington Post critic Alexis Burling raves,
If you “find solace in “Sex in [sic] the City” marathons, this book’s your bag.”

by Lynne Shallcross | July 2008

What woman hasn’t grazed the magazine racks at Borders, spied a glossy cover of Cosmo adorned with a gorgeous, airbrushed celebrity, and wondered if, in exchange for forking over a few bucks, she really could rid herself of underarm jiggle and make men melt at her feet? Is anyone reading this raising her hand right now? I didn’t think so. We all wonder if those captivating cover lines can really work. Washingtonian contributor Cathy Alter spent a year finding out— (Spoiler alert after the jump) .
Continue reading >>

Allure magazine
by Hannah Morrill
 | June 2008

Allure Magazine July 2008 People - Style Watch June 2008

Words of Advice
Henry David Thoreau went to Walden Pond; Elizabeth Gilbert went to India; and Cathy Alter, author of Up for Renewal: What Magazines Taught Me About Love, Sex and Starting Over (Atria Books), went to the newsstand. Alter spent a year transforming her life by following the advice from women’s magazines. We asked her what she learned.
Why magazines? I needed to change the path I was on without spending much money. Magazines offer a lot of promises. I thought, Why not take them up on their offer?
Did they deliver? Success was never about having Jessica Alba’s body. There’s something to be said for looking your best and taking an active role in what you’re doing-whether it’s making a sandwich or painting your bedroom.
What was the worst advice? One article said it was OK to keep secrets in a relationship. I tried not telling my boyfriend something significant, and it was horrible.
Any good tips from Allure? I tore out the Best of Beauty and carried it around in my purse. Because of it, I wear Chanel eye shadow to this day.

People – Style Watch

People - Style Watch June 2008

In this fresh real-life account, Alter tries to change her life by following women’s-magazine advice on everything from love to work to how to throw a party.

If you find solace in “Sex in the City” marathons, this book’s your bag.

Kirkus Reviews

“Is it so wrong to want to be bossed around by Helen Gurley Brown?” asks freelance writer Alter (Virgin Territory: Stories from the Road to Womanhood, 2004), who decided that for one year she would follow without question the advice she found in nine women’s magazines.
She was prompted by her reckless behavior in the wake of a divorce. The 37-year-old author was drinking and smoking heavily, splurging on $800 custom-made cowboy boots, bored to tears with her dead-end job at a D.C. legal-publishing firm and having midday sex in her cubicle with a co-worker she didn’t even really like. “Unable to stop the feeding frenzy of poor decisions” on her own, she turned to Cosmopolitan, O, InStyle, Real Simple and others of their ilk. Her experiment began timidly but not without bravado as she methodically tackled such personal issues as beauty, diet, spirit and relationships. Among the interesting cast of real-life characters were Alter’s shrink, Dr. Oskar, who had an unnerving habit of crying right alongside her in sessions; her best friend Jeanne, who loved her enough to tell her, “I don’t think I can be around you any longer”; and handsome Karl, whose overbearing Chinese mother deftly handed out guilt trips and stern advice in equal parts. As the author discovered that she wanted to incorporate Karl into her life for more than just one issue, a slow and powerful metamorphosis took place. Soon Alter began to battle her various neuroses, piecing together a new self image through small acts like learning how to properly wrap a sandwich in Saran wrap and discovering what language is best used to encourage a man to open up. “Anything can change a life that is ready to be changed,” she discovered, and readers will thank the author for providing motivation to make changes of their own.
An undeniably gimmicky premise, but executed with enough humor, heart and authenticity to charm even the most skeptical reader.

Hartford Courant
by Carole Goldberg

Cathy Alter, a journalist and author who grew up in West Hartford, took an unusual path to enlightenment: she consulted the pages of such popular magazines as Elle, Marie Claire, O, Self, Real Simple, Cosmopolitan and more. For a whole year. In “Up for Renewal: What Magazines Taught Me About Love, Sex and Starting Over” (Atria, $23), Alter dove deep into advice on everything from loving your mother to thrilling your lover, from the stunningly trivial to the truly important. Each month, she chose one area of her life, searched out articles that related to it and tried to follow the advice they offered. In so doing, she found unexpected insights into serious problems she faced that year. There are laughs here, but there is also a genuine attempt to learn whether you can change yourself for the better. Alter says: Yes, we can. (HANDOUT / June 16, 2008)

New York Post
by Mandy Stadtmiller

CONTRARY to popular opinion, book blurbing is not simply an insider’s game of back scratching and industry favors.
What gives me the right to say so? Well, I’ve been sucked into this world of bite-size praise, and there’s no going back now.
Come July, a new book will come out called “Up for Renewal,” about bettering life through magazines.
On the back of it will include the following quote: “You know that warm, relaxed, pleasurable feeling you get when cracking open the latest issue of your favorite magazine? That’s what reading Cathy Alter’s ‘Up for Renewal’ is like. Prepare to . . . get truly inspired.”
And I meant every hyperbolic word of it. See, sometimes you can judge a book by its blurber. Continue reading>>

Publishers Weekly

Realizing she needed to do serious work on her junk food/junk sex–littered lifestyle, Alter, a “recently divorced thirty-seven-year old” freelance writer, decided to spend each month of the coming year following the advice of a major women’s magazine “without question.” She picked nine titles focusing on a “how-to ethos” more or less aligned with her own demographic: Elle, Marie Claire, O, Allure, Self, Cosmopolitan, Glamour, InStyle and Real Simple. Each month she’d work on a particular “damage zone”—diet, social fears, clothes, relationship snafus, cooking, sex, etc.—and follow the advice of her chosen magazine as earnestly as possible. Meanwhile, she’d also begun dating a new guy, which brought up relationship challenges her magazine mentors loved to address—spicing up the sex, learning to cook instead of eating out and deciding if his birthday present meant a marriage proposal was imminent. 
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The New York Observer
by Leon Neyfakh 

“Oh my God, my life was a total mess,” said 42-year-old Cathy Alter. “Seriously, I was married for almost five years, unhappily. … We hadn’t had sex in a really long time. I felt like his mommy—it just wasn’t good for me. I just felt kind of mean all the time. Mean and angry. And when I finally left and went through my divorce, I went crazy. I felt like I was back in college. I was sick all the time. I was hanging around with some really fast people—partying, drinking. These two guys I knew had ‘Sunday Fundays,’ where you’d start with mimosas and drink all day long and have a nightcap at midnight.” Continue reading >>